I've decided to start blogging every Wednesday to not only hold myself accountable but, to make sure I am always growing, sharing and building. I have a major vision with no real blueprint. So! I have to do what I know to do and my free-writes are apart if that knowing.
Today is Wednesday Dec 14th, 2022 and the topic of "Faith" has been a trend in my world lately. Now, I love the Lord with all of my heart and don't get me on worship! Wooo! I love me some worship but, having faith is a completely different action. Having faith doesn't require worship, or love because it's motivators are"Knowing & Choice".
This past year has been crazy amazing and crazy lacking! Now, let me elaborate on that a little more (lol).
Crazy Amazing!
It's been crazy amazing because my husband and I are finally living in a place we love! We frequent the "LA Lakers" games with V.I.P status, I've hiked, enjoyed Malibu as if I lived there, we've created, laughed, eaten top tier steaks, been invited to more holiday parties than I could ever ask for and so much more. I could seriously keep going.
Crazy Lacking!
Crazy lacking because when I think about my acting/modeling career this year, it has been the slowest booking season I've ever experienced. I've barely worked and there were times where I thought to myself "What am I doing?". I am not making money within a capacity that is sustainable, "I can't keep living like this". A few months is one thing, but a whole year is a long time, so naturally I've had my fair share of moments where I doubted myself, this career choice and even my relationship with God.
Which is crazy because I've lived so abundantly this year! When I got out of my feelings and looked around, I realized I had lived more amazing moments in 2022 than I have in a very long time. I found that I placed so much value in my identity as an actor/model that I wasn't paying attention to the harvest around me. You see, I always thought a harvest was tied to a major monetary gain or something of similar value. But, when I got out of my head, I could see that my harvest in this time & season has been the ability to be rooted and grounded in a new land.
I moved to Los Angeles right before the pandemic from my hometown Columbus Ohio, and it wasn't until a few weeks ago while hiking with my husband that it hit me! It hit me that " I made it !". I made it to LA! I am a working creative, I am waking up to a view people dream of, I am married, I am blessed, I am no longer an Ohio girl dreaming. I am now a living reality! Yes, more success would be a cherry on top but, that's going to come, I just need to "HAVE FAITH".
Faith Requires knowing and choice!
"I know that I am on the path God has always wanted for me and I choose to keep going, keep pushing and doing what I know to do with I have, and what I got"
It is my prayer that this short and sweet glimpse into my reality and gained wisdom will enlighten the minds and hearts of those who need it, and will encourage others to share! BECAUSE YOU DESERVE TO LIVE A GREAT LIFE.
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